Day 15: I was mentally, physically, and spiritually exhausted after writing my experiences and perceptive as a Psychic Medium for two straight weeks. Feeling so worn out that I did not have any energy left to continue writing a blog. I debated whether should I create a new blog or take a break but then, I came across Doreen Virtue’s Daily card reading. It was a sign saying, “its okay to rest. You did a great, beautiful work!” Ah! Thank you Lord for answering my question because you knew I needed the rest. I happily crawled into my bed and went to sleep under cozy covers earlier than usual. It felt amazing!
Day 16: I woke up with soft and draining energy. I did not feel like myself. I could feel my energies were out of balance. The past 14 days I was using my third chakra way too much, neglecting other chakras. Thus, my chakras were out of balance. I was trying hard to stay above myself and be optimistic, however, as soon as I arrived at my work site, my morning started off rocky. I was feeling a bit snappy inside. I felt an urge to snap at someone and pick on their flaws but I bite my tongue. I controlled my emotions. I became an attraction to negativity. I could pick up on others’ people negative thoughts which made it worse for me. I knew I needed Reiki healing immediately. I knew I was not myself. I needed to ground myself and re-balance my chakras. I knew someone who was a Reiki practitioner. A beautiful soul friend had a heart to send me a complimentary distance Reiki healing. Oh, Bless her heart. My Lord knew I needed this healing. I love how things fell in place for me. My Reiki Healer sent me healing while I drifted off to sleep.
Day 17: Next morning, I thanked my Reiki Healer for the healing. She prayed for a better day. I also prayed for a blessed day. My energy was still a bit off but staying positive like always. As I go through my routine at work, my energy slowly improved. After work, I had a conversation with a good friend of mine. Soon after, my energy picked up. I could feel a boost to my energy. I was feeling like myself again. I thought to myself, “YES! I am myself again. Feeling awesome and grounded. Reiki healing worked a miracle on me!” To make my day even better, I talked with few friends of mine, they all expressed their appreciation and gratitude for our friendship. Ah.. my day was ending on a blessed note. I prayed for a blessed day. My God showed me that I was indeed blessed to have a wonderful group of supportive friends. I thought that having supportive friends are necessary friends to have in your life to uplift you.
It was hard to stop blogging because I had a sense of responsibility. However, I am human. All of us humans need a break once in a while. I NEEDED that break. It was a good break which helped me understand my body signals better. I learned that listening to your body changes which indicated that something’s off and it need to be re-balanced. It’s okay to be a human sometime for my sanity’s sakes.
I asked my Spirit Guide why was I feeling snappy? They said, “You released old ego fears. You healed a lot on yourself. As soon as you healed few ego fears, new and unexplored fears come up to the surface. You still have a lot of healing to do.” The more you release ego fears, the more new ones come to the surface. Yes, there’s more ego fears left in me than I realized. I am 31 years old and lived on Earth for 31 years. 31 longs years of multiple life experiences, trials, and tribulations. I was taught thousands of perspectives, philosophies, fears, conspiracies, and vice versa. The more I allow other people’s thoughts pile on my soul, the more fears I’ve adopted. Those were not my fears but I adopted them and it became me. I bravely looked within me and have a conversation with fears. They did not want to come out. As a nurturing Mother, I had to convince them that it was safe to come out. Fears were resisting, screaming, and kicking at me but I tell them that they need to go because they do not belong there. Releasing fears thus becoming love. Releasing fears allow new room for love to come in me.
Sometimes you have to step away from what you love in order to learn how to love it again. -Damien Rice